~ Thursday ~

              

I'm not even sure where to start.  Today was just shitty!  From the time I got up and saw frost on the grass and a coating of ice on my car the day went down hill.  I was in a 'blah' mood yesterday but I really wasn't crabby, angry, or upset about anything.  Today every little thing hit me like a ton of bricks.  My emotions were all over the board.  I hated work today....with the pouting, drama, tantrums, you name it.  I was working on a short fuse and boy I felt as though I'd explode.  Nothing major really, but they all added up and by noon I was ready to just scream, 'leave me alone I don't feel like hearing it.'   I don't mind being there, I don't mind lending an ear, a hug, a voice.  But today the same person came to me in tears with every little thing.  I know that sounds mean, but it is a daily thing.  I don't have my coat off and they are at my desk and come back a good 10 times before lunch.  Last I checked I don't have a license on my wall saying I'm a shrink nor do I get the pay of one.  Don't get me wrong, because I know this probably sounds like I'm a bitch or that I'm whining.  Hmmmmm  maybe I am.  I don't know.  Like I said my fuse was short today.  'How's your sister?' and before I can say a word I'm hearing the first 10 things going wrong in their life.  From burning dinner to taking a trip that got a bit mixed up.  :::sigh::: why ask if you don't want to hear?  I don't want or need the attention, but in comparison burnt dinner is not on my high priority list.  Sorry. 

 

I won't go into all the details but I was in tears more then once today.  I was thrilled to get home from work to an empty house.  I got out of my work clothes and put on sweats and just relaxed a bit.  Did a few graphics to calm my nerves and mellow me out.  Peace and quiet, no one yapping in my ear.  It gave me the time to try and gather my thoughts.  Get my emotions in check, if that is possible.  Some how I don't think it is.  Igo from being me to being so sad I feel like heart is being ripped out. 

 

This weekend it is going to get cold again.  Just what I need!  GRRRRR They are calling for rain and then even snow.  WTF?!?  I thought spring was on it's way in. The weather is changing like my mood!!  Saturday is Gage's birthday.  He will be 8.  I can't even believe it.  Sooooooooooo tomorrow it is off to shop for a birthday gift.  Any ideas on what to buy an 8 year old who has everything??  I'm thinking summer theme.  Swim trunks, shorts, beach shoes, sandals, beach towel.  He has grown like a weed and I'm sure he will need them.  I kid you not when I say he has everything, and I helped them move into that house.  He does not need toys!!!

 

Well, enough rambling from subject to subject, topic to topic.  I'm gonna take some drugs and go to bed.  Sleep well .............. enjoy your Friday I know I am going to!!!

 

Hugs

~d

 

 

 

                        

 

                 

Tags: psp graphics, psp snags

~ Few Easter Snags ~

                    

                    

                     

                          

Tags: psp graphics, psp snags, Easter

~Hump Day~

     

Today was a typical hump day... I didn't think it would end.  Nothing bad happened just blahze'.  The boys did win tonight which is great.  There are only a few games left in the regular season so it's down to the wire.  They are assured a spot in the playoffs, it's just best to go in on a winning note.  I know me talking about hockey bores you, but today... well I have nothing to say.  Yeah yeah I know some of you think I never have anything to say.  :)~

 

I could not find one graphic to use in this entry, I tried to do a few but my creative juices were blahze' too.  So you get a hockey one ::evil grin:: One that was a tutorial that I had changed up a while ago,  but this is the original before I played with it ... and a new tag request.  Just click on the graphic if you want to request one.

 

 <--click here to request one :)

 

No worries, nothing is wrong, just wasn't very original or creative today and after dumping several I just said the hell with it.  No sense in pushing it, you'd get crap......   tomorrow will be better.

 

Night all........ hope you are all in good spirits and doing good.

 

Hugs

~d

 

                

Tags: Buffalo Sabres, psp snags, psp tag requests

~ Pea Soup ~

           

Got up this morning to get ready for work and was amazed when I looked outside.  I could not see the trees in my front lawn, cars in the drive, nothing.  NO it was not snowing, it was fog.  A fog so thick all I could think of was split pea soup.  I really didn't have time to do pictures before I left for work.  So I grabbed my camera on the way out the door thinking I could do some on the way.  I really didn't want to push my luck trying to take pictures as I drove and the highway is not the best place to stop to focus.  It mattered not.  The closer I got to the downtown area the clearer it was.  Oh well, I had my camera and it was so fitting and just my luck that there be nothing to take a picture of.   I got to work and began my day.  About 10ish some folks came in from outside and commented on how foggy is was.  I don't have a corner office with a window so I had no idea :)~  I did however grab my camera and head out front.  The picture in the top left is aiming to the left of the office door.  That street/stop light isn't but maybe a half block away.  The colored item is a metal sculpture in front of the subway (another entry) entrance you wouldn't know it is extremely bright.  You can barely see the building next door, and the rest, well they vanished.   The church steeple is across the street.  I could throw a stone and hit the front steps.  Well maybe not, I throw like a girl, but I wouldn't anyway.  Throw a stone I mean.  The bottom left is the sun.  Yes, the sun not the moon. I thought it looked so cool, and I could actually look at it without eye pain.  Next to that is to the right of the office entrance.  That street/stop light is a bit further away.  The Anchor Bar is on the corner there (top corner below the sun) but you'd never know it.  You've seen clearer pictures in previous entries and you may remember how clear those were.  If you look hard you can see the shadows of the cars at the light and the buildings along the street.  This, at 10 am.   The sun did finally burn it off and it turned into a nice day.  Blue sky with a few clouds and the temps in the 60's.

 

The day at work was uneventful and at quitting time I was glad to be out of there.  My office is not right in the heart of downtown, I am a bit north of the city.  I take Main St back towards downtown to the thruway entrance.  As I was driving down Main St I could see what looked like smoke.  I thought, oh shit what is burning.  It didn't take long to realize it wasn't anything burning but the left over fog that was hidden between the buildings.  I pulled off to the side of the road and grabbed a few shots.  The whole time thinking, who you gonna call....... ghost busters.  Ok, so I'm weird.   I am quite a distance but you can see the fog linger.  In the one shot where you see archways in the street, that is where the subway comes above ground and runs like a trolly.  You can see a bit of the architecture, but these shots no way do it justice.  When cars started beeping I decided it was time to get out of the street and move on.  Well, they really didn't beep, but I was in the road and thought I best move.  LOL   I tried to drive down closer to get shots, but amazingly enough while in the heart of the fog you couldn't even tell. 

 

 

       

 

I stopped at my sisters on my way home and brought her a milkshake.  She had her second treatment today and actually looked good.  Said she felt better this time around, but did sleep the afternoon away.  Then I went and did some pavement pounding.  I went to a few local establishments to see if they'd donate gift certificates and/or such for her benefit.   Her friends planned one to help with expenses and any travel that might be needed down the road for other medical things.  I was pretty successful and will do some more tomorrow.  They already have a ton of things, but the more the better.  By the time I got home I was drained.  I had a quick sandwich and then worked on the pictures.  No editing done other then to resize and make the collages.  It was so much fun doing them.  I will have to get some more pictures so you can actually see things, eh? 

 

Didn't make any animations or tags tonight, but I did have 'friends forever' for another entry but thought I would post it tonight.  I hope everyone had a great Tuesday..... and wishing you a good 'hump day'

 

Hugs

~d

 

                  

 

EDIT:  Kudo's to Sam for noticing I was in a time warp and had put 2006 on the fog picture.  LMAO!!!  Thanks Sam I appreciate it... now ya all know how daffy I can be. I've fixed it so no, you aren't imagining.  ::grin::

~ My Day ~

       

First, I again want to say thank you to everyone.  My alerts just started working again and I didn't get to personally reply to all, so forgive me but I do so appreciate it.  Second, I ate like a cow today!

 

I got to work this morning to a few little presents on my desk.  Treats, cards, candles, it was very nice.  I had several messages on my voice mail and several emails from co-workers.  This on top of the notes I had here when I first logged on this am.  About 10:30 I was just hanging up the phone to hear happy birthday.  It was a candle on a cake from the folks in my department.  Carrot cake. YUMMY!!!  Nothing like a nutritious breakfast.  It went great with a cup of coffee.  For lunch I had a burger and cheesy potatoes.  I really wasn't hungry after the cake, but I ate it anyway  LOL  A few more calls sending good wishes after lunch.  I got home and my sister made a roast beef dinner.  Just the way I like it, along with mashed potatoes & gravy and peas.  All my favorites.  I chomped and chewed, and of course went for seconds on the meat.  A few more cards and birthday cake.  The cake had a butter cream frosting chocolate cake layer, razzberry cream filling topped with white cake.  Coffee topped the meal off.  I was here checking mail and as you know I was completely overwhelmed with the well wishes.  You warmed my soul.  My day was perfect.  I get to celebrate with my son in a few days and I'm looking forward to that. 

 

I don't want to ruin a great day with griping about AOL, but damn it pissed me off today.  All my alerts went down and then I got a few, then nothing, then a few more but not my comment alerts.  I emailed Joe and told him it was my birthday the least he could do was give me alerts.  I know he worked on it and all of sudden they were there.  Not before I turned them all off, turned them on, deleted, added, cleared history, should I go on?   GRRRRRRRR  I know I missed a ton today and I'm sorry.  I will try and catch up I promise!

 

I know the saying is ate like a pig... but I only had a cow... LOL  I giggled as I did it, and know it could be much better but this will have to do.  Not much time to do graphics tonight.  The others are from over the weekend.  The non-animated one is something a bit different and was just playing around.  Not my normal style, and not sure what you all think.  :::shrugging shoulders:::  Maybe with some animation?  Might have to play around with that idea.  The old mill just called me.  I loved the picture and the saying.  Kind of where I'm at right now I guess.  Trying to cope, stay positive, be there, all the things you want to do but have to reach deep down to get.  Make sense?  Hmmm... it makes sense to me.  ::grin:: 

 

 

              

 

I hope everyone had a great day today.  I am off to lah lah land.  Thanks again!

 

Hugs

~d

 

              

 

                       

 

        

Tags: graphics, psp graphics, psp snags

~ OMG ~

       

I am truly honored to be part of this community.  You guys have treated me so special over the years I've been here, and today you outdid yourselves.  I am blessed to have you as friends!  I am overwhelmed with the wonderful wishes that have come my way.  I got home from work to more and more.  It brought me to tears.  I normally respond to comment alerts, but since AOL has not sent me any alerts, I haven't done so.  I'm sorry, but hope you will take this as a blanket Thank You.  You've touched my heart and soul.  Comments, e-cards, journal entries, snail mail cards.  I'm touched beyond words.  How could I ever say thank you for all this?  Just know I do appreciate it and am flattered.

 

Hugs

~d

 

PS No doubt AOL will not send out an alert.... but I am trying to cover everyone without leaving anyone out.  THANK YOU!!

~ Full Mailbox ~

            

Thanks guys... you are the best!!  I woke to a full mailbox of greetings - Thank You!!!  Though I'd much rather forget I'm a year older I appreciate you remembering.  You rock!!!

 

I found some comments when I got here that I didn't get an alert for so I'm glad this entry is going up.  I would never not send a thank you........ so please accept this as my thank you to you....  geeeze.. wonder if AOL will send an alert for this  grrrrrr

 

Love you guys... have a great day.. you made mine wonderful!

 

Hugs

~d