~ I Admit It ~

Yes, after all this time I will admit it.  I am freakin old and out of shape!!  I don't have the get up and go like I once did, and yes I was visited by 'this' earlier today.  No, I didn't die for a second, or have my life flash before my eyes, but I was warned.

 

So I didn't actually put the spoon under my pillow or put my jammies on inside out.  In my neck of the woods you don't have to, not at this time of year.  It was snowing pretty good when I went to bed, and was still snowing when I woke up.  A friend of a friend of a friend plows our driveway and he had already been by.  Yeah!  Only thing is the way we park so all  our cars will fit.    He has to pull the snow up the drive and leaves a 'trailer' behind our cars.  I could see it was quite high and looked pretty chunky for lack of a better word.  Very similar to what one would have at the end of the driveway after the plow went down the street.  Nothing was done between the cars, for obvious reasons.  I flip on the TV and wait for the coffee to be done so I can at least have a little 'jo' before heading out.  I look at the screen and say a silent prayer that work is closed.  OMG!  Yeah right!  I live in snow country.  The 10-12 inches that fell is nothing, well except for schools, they were closed.  So I have some coffee, read some mail, and then throw on some clothes to begin the 'dig.'  There was probably 3 inches more since the plow had been by, but I'm sure I can trudge through that.  What I needed to clear was behind my car so I could back up and pull out as well as the drivers side so I could get in.  Nice drift there, about half way up my doors.   I start behind my car.  Holy shit!  Definitely more there then what I thought as I looked out my window from the warmth of my house.  The wind is blowing and the snow felt like pellets as it smacked my cheeks.  I take a couple swipes at the pile and stop, thinking, I didn't know I had muscles there.  Look around and take a deep breath and do a couple more.  OUCH! this is heavy!!  I move over to the light fluffy snow and start to clear between the cars.  Thinking I will take turns so not to wear myself out.  Yes, I'm old!  My feet slide, I stretch, pull, groan, and catch myself from falling flat on my ass and/or face.  I must have looked like a fool.  I do a few more swipes and my hip and back start aching, burning, screaming.  STOP! I try to stand up straight and I could feel tears well up.  I take another swipe behind my car.  It hurt.  I stood there looking around.  I was sore, tired, fed up.  All last week every morning was like this.  I'd finally get out of the driveway, drive through blinding snow, get to work and it would be beautiful... all day.  I'd go to leave and the heavens would open and dump more snow making my normal 20 minute drive an hour or more.  Not again today, I can't!  I threw the shovel and said 'F it'.  I walked over to the shovel, ok so I kind of limped to it, picked it up so it didn't get buried and placed it on the front stoop.  I came inside, shook off the snow, took off my boots, and promptly picked up the phone and called off.   I had no energy or get up and go to this today.  I took a few Tylenol and my heating pad and went back to bed.  I slept for a bit and when I got up I found myself sore and stiff.  Looking outside it was still snowing.  About 6 more inches of snow in the drive.  ARRRRRRRGH

 

I don't think I did any real damage, and to set the record straight the tears were more frustration then pain.  It's been an emotional few days around here and I just didn't have the 'umph.'   Besides all the drama around JLand and that same routine of clearing snow all last week, I found out last night my brother in law was in the hospital.  Apparently he wasn't feeling well on Sunday.  He has allergies and does have difficulty breathing at times.  They blew it off as that.  On Monday he was sitting at the kitchen table and once again he had those issues along with sweats.  My sister thought he looked a bit gray so off he went to the Dr's.  He felt a bit tight in his chest and the Dr sent him off to the hospital.  One thing led to another and they kept him.  He had a battery of tests and they kept him again.  He was scheduled for an Angiogram today.  Haven't heard anything yet.  So my emotional state along with feeling old and out of shape just hit me like a ton of bricks.  I'm good, but can you find it in your heart to send a few good wishes my brother in laws way?  We'd all appreciate it.

 

It's been snowing off and on all day, but at least the street out front is just wet and sloppy.  My car is buried as I left it this morning.  My sister called my nephew and he will be over a bit later to shovel.  I suppose there will be a cost, eh?  I dig you out, you let me use the computer.  I tried my son but he is working and won't be out until 11, that is if they don't ask him to stay late too.  Oh, I wish I was young and strong! 

 

Hope everyone else is doing ok, this is one mother of a storm hitting the US.  I may venture out to get pictures, but if you've seen one yard full of snow you've seen 'em all.  LOL  I'll be back....  stay safe and warm.

 

Hugs

~d