~ The Day from HELL ~

             

Maybe I should have waited to offer that tag up?  Or, maybe by doing it I jinxed myself.  Either way today was the absolute pits!!!!  A day from hell!

 

Got up this morning to a beautiful day.  The sun was breaking over the houses across the street and the temperature was warm.  They were calling for a record setting day.  Believe me it broke several records and came very close to breaking my spirit.  

 

Logged on this morning and went thru mail.  I went to go to a favorite and when I opened them up, to my amazement they were gone.  All but a few.  WTF?!?!   Then I remembered a goofy error last night that knocked me right off line.  I didn't check when I got back just went about my business.  That's the only thing I can think of.  AOL sucks so bad at times!!  No alerts, then this......... GRRRRRRRRRR

So here I am looking for all my sites, journals, everything.  I couldn't stick around, that fake job was calling..... soooooooo off I go.

 

Work starts out fine.  I will spare you all the details but all hell broke loose about noon.  Last week everyone in the department was asked about a procedure.  We gave our answers.  All was cool.  Today the department gets sent an email.  It was basically confirming what our process was, no big deal, but there is a whole thread.  I begin to read thru the entire thread.  It was very obvious the thread was amongst management giving the pros and cons of the procedure.  It had clearly been edited before being sent, but there hanging out there is my name.  Out of context it almost appeared I had done something wrong.  I questioned the sender who was embarrassed and very apologetic.  Sent an email to the department letting them know the error and apologizing to me.  It wasn't meant that way, and knowing the whole story I was fine with it.  Shit happens.  I'm in her office talking and when I get back to my desk I have 5-6 more emails.  Another manager from another department forwarded the same mail out to let them know the procedure.  I wanted to die.  The sender is in tears, I feel bad, folks are freaking out and want HR to do something about it.  WTF?!?!  It was an accident and if I was fine with it why wasn't everyone else?

 

I leave work early today.  Last Friday I started having a un-comfy feeling along my jar.  I think I need an adjustment and made an appointment with the Dentist for today.  All weekend it bothered me, but nothing too drastic.  It was tender and a bit swollen.  Late yesterday it started feeling better.  I didn't want to cancel the appointment because I know my luck.  I would and a day later the pain would return.  Felt so good I ate corn on the cob last night.  First time in years!!!  So I leave work and go to the dentist.  She feels around and then takes x-rays.  I'm a bit nervous about what they might find.  I've been great for months and had very few problems since the surgery last November.  I wait and wait.  She comes back into the room and shows me.  Points at this little spot and tells me it is a root tip.  It got left behind and is now festering and I have an abscess.  A year later????   She numbs me up, drains it and gives me antibiotics.  I have to go back in December for them to remove the tip.  I'm told it is not all that uncommon.  I leave with a slight throb and a headache.  Still a bit tender right now, but definitely feel the difference.  Thank God the is over, for now.

 

I get home about 6.  I call my sister to see how she made out today and discuss the shake.  Turns out she didn't get her treatment.  I talked to her husband and the day did not go well, she was sleeping.  I'm devastated and not in a position to say much more right now, not here.  Please, please just say an extra prayer for her.  I know I've asked for a lot but I am at wits end.  I can't change what is happening, I don't understand, my spirit is breaking and my faith wavering.  I look at the candles and want to light and light and light some more in the hopes that it will change the path..............  I wish I could make it burn forever...  that it could .. would change something.  I thank you for all you've given me, and I am so sorry I keep asking, I just don't know what to do..........

 

I tried to get to journals tonight, and I'm sorry I didn't make it to all........ just couldn't concentrate or comment.  I'm in a fog......   I know you'll understand.. and I promise to be by.

 

Hugs

~d

Tags: bad day, dentists, aol errors, prayers