Sunday, August 24, 2008

~ Always on my Mind ~

   DsDesignsAlwaysonmyMind.gif picture by 55hockeyfan


I couldn't let the day go by without acknowledging my beloved sisters birthday.  How many times I thought about picking up my phone to call and sing to her.  Tore my heart out.  She is always on mind and today she has been front and center.  I miss her more then anything in the world.  Her laugh, her smile, the strength she had her entire life.  I could call her for anything.... and I do mean anything!   Stop at a whim.  Instead today I had to be satisfied with visiting the cemetery. 

 

On my way the sky opened and a storm rolled in.  The rain pelted my car and my wipers were going a mile a minute.  As I pulled in and parked I fumbled to grab my umbrella.  Then like magic the rain stopped and the sun pierced the dark clouds.  I smiled as I knew she didn't want me to get wet.  Maybe she wanted me to visit for awhile.   Either way, I stayed a bit and talked, prayed, and cried.  I wished her a Happy Birthday.  I let her know how much I miss her.  I cried some more.  Happy Birthday Patty Ann.  Love you always and forever.

 

hugs

~d

48 comments:

Anonymous said...

Big hugs sent to you Donna .....my father passed away 1 year ago last Sunday ...it was a difficult day.

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Anonymous said...

Had to stop to comment today to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs, Martha

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Anonymous said...

Goose bumps going on as I type this... You know Patty Ann was with you at that moment, as she is every moment of everyday..in your heart and in your memories!  
Happy Birthday in Heaven Patty Ann...
xo Darlene

Anonymous said...

Donna, John and I lost his mother recently.  We understand how you feel about talking to your sister.  We talk to John's Mom sometimes and it helps.  Even though she's not here on earth, we believe she's listening, watching out for us.  I think Patty Ann is with you in a special way tonight on her birthday, looking over you because you two had such a bond.  

We're keeping you in our prayes.  

Krissy


Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.  I know it is very hard.  I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers.  
Hugs,
Hollie

Anonymous said...

Dear Donna,
  I've been where you are, except w/ a daughter, not a sister; my thoughts and prayers with you,  (((comforting hug))).  I like to think those we have loved who leave us too soon become our own special guardian angels.  Know she is smiling down on you with love.

Susan.
p.s. love the wave graphic.

Anonymous said...

I so wish you could have your sister here to talk to in person.  I know it can be difficult at times especially special occasions.  I'm sure she is looking down upon you with a big smile and holding you with a big hug.  Have a happy week.  Luv ya!

Allison

Anonymous said...

This made me cry, D.  

Happy birthday to your beautiful sister.

XOXO,
bridgett

Anonymous said...

Sending you some big cyber hugs!
Missie

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday to your beloved sister. She is truely living on in your heart.
Hugs, Maria

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Anonymous said...

God bless you, my thoughts & prayers are with you. Seems the pain never really goes away, I feel the same about my Mom & my Son, I think of them all the time, holidays & their BD's are the worst.
Have a good week.
Hugs,
Sugar

Anonymous said...

I'm crying huge tears myself.  I know you close you two were and how much you miss her.  I'v enever had a sister ans can only imagine how 2 hearts can enteine the way you and Patty's did.  hugs wet hugs,  Bethe

Anonymous said...

Awwwwwww hon, Happy Birthday to your sister Sending you Hugs ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Donna))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Love Lisa

Anonymous said...

you had me crying - I know her birthday was fabulous - Heaven always has the best!!!
HUGS to you {{{{{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}}}
-Ellie

Anonymous said...

Birthdays and holidays (and the date of the death) are always the hardest.  The pain may get better with time but the memories never leave us.  Happy Birthday Patty.
Hugs, Joyce

Anonymous said...

Oh hun, *hugs* U had me in tears. God bless you and your family. I can just feel the pain u still have, the sadness and how much you miss her. Im praying for you and your family hun. I know she is smiling at u all from above and checks on you all all the time. She will always be with you hun. Love ya dear, Leslie

Anonymous said...

Aww honey I sure feel for you-it is so hard to loose those we love. Keep the faith-one day you will be in Heaven together again--blessings to you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Big Hugs D
Ann

Anonymous said...

I bet she's having a wonderful birthday. Especially since you visited her.  Big hugs!!!! : )

Anonymous said...

happy b-day to her.

Anonymous said...

*Tears* it's amazing how our loved ones let us know they are with us. Like you I cherish those moments. Sending you many hugs!
Hugs
Debbie

Anonymous said...

This entry brought tears to my eyes. I can feel how much you loved her and how much you must miss her.  I do believe that the rain stopping was her way of telling you that she is still with you, watching over you. God bless her.

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday to your dear sister. ((((((((hugs))))))))
Love ya,
Cindy xoxoxo

Anonymous said...

I am sure she was with you right there
hugs Jayne

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry I missed this last night.  I shall burn candles all week here in her honor.  Happy Birthday, Patty!
xo
MJ

Anonymous said...

I know she wanted you to visit.....You are in my thoughts Donna.....

Michele

Anonymous said...

Beautifully written tribute to a VERY special lady, loved by all and missed so much. I wish i had known her. I love you, D.

Anonymous said...

Oh, Donna... I am so sorry.  This is so beautiful.  You made her a gorgeous tag!  What a wonderful and giving artist you are!  I am sure your sister was right there with you on your visit, honey.  I hope your week gets a little better... Take good care and God bless, Val xox
http://journals.aol.com/valphish/ThereisaSeason
http://journals.aol.com/valphish/JoyInTheRain

Anonymous said...

I love when things like this happens. Clouds opening up, for you to walk to her place.......no doubt she was watching out for you.

Keep you in my thoughts,
Angel

Anonymous said...

A Special Happy Birthday......
Hugs....
Linda :)

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful entry Donna.  
Hugs,
Dana

Anonymous said...

God bless you and your sister, Donna, I had tears in my eyes when I read that a beautiful entry.  I have been away in Oregon I cant send emails in this name, and did not think I could get in journals,last time i was here they did nto allow me to use my name unless i paid a service charge.  Hope all is well with you, I will be back in Canada at the end of the week.  God bless, I realize how much you miss your sister, my Mom's and Dad's birthday were on the 20th and 17th of this month.  Take care.

Anonymous said...

... this is poignant for me to have read ... thanks a lot for sharing ... and my thoughts are with you and your sister ...

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Patty!
(((((Donna)))))  I haven't been to visit in a while and thought I'd pop in to say hello.   Glad I did for this entry.   It is just a beautiful tribute, a touching entry.   I know you miss her, and I pray God gives you peace.
~Meg

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Patty!!!

Big Hugs to you my friend....


Terri

Anonymous said...

Donna:  What a sweet entry! I'm so sorry for your loss.  It makes me appreicate having my sister still "with us" even though she is slipping away mentally. Your words make me value my time with her even more.

Donna
 

Anonymous said...

Isn't it amazing how the weather seems to play a factor in certain situations? I'm glad the sun shined for you.
Sheri

Anonymous said...

Oh Donna.....I felt your pain all the way across the screen, and I stopped and asked God to hold your heart a little closer. I can only imagine how much you miss your sister, and I totally believe she wanted a few extra moments with you today. Happy Birthday, Patty Ann.

Love & Pooh Hugs,
Linda

Anonymous said...

((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU))))))))))))))))))))I feel She wanted you to visit with Her today to,it made me want to cry with you.She was so brave with all She  went through.Many hugs and and love to you.

Anonymous said...

I'm sure that the sun shining down on your visit was your sister's way of letting you know that she's still with you - Always . . .
Sincerely, Rose~*

Anonymous said...

happy birthday in heaven to your beloved sister!
Lyn

Anonymous said...

{{{donna}}}  i can't even begin to imagine what it must be like to lose a sister.  i know how you must miss her, and i guess there will always be those special days that she will missed and thought of even more.  i'm glad that you are from a close knit family and have and can share so many wonderful memories of her.
gina

Anonymous said...

Oh Donna, these firsts are so hard after someone has passed on.  Thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you.... hugs Rosemary

Anonymous said...

sorry i am late donna, my thoughts have been with you at this sad time. take care mrs t xx