~ Summer Dreams ~

Aaaah yes, summer dreams.  I didn't do an entry yesterday.  I was exhausted.  I played with graphics after work and I deleted each and every one.  I didn't like them, I wasn't in the mood.  Today I got into work and my desk was buried.  I want to know who the little gremlins are that come out at night and leave me work!!!  The day went by fairly fast but about half through I found myself just staring at my computer screen not doing a thing.  I know my mind wandered, but I'm not sure exactly where it went.  I took off next Monday and Tuesday and decided I wanted another day so I requested off for Friday.  No plans for that day, but before I knew it I had asked off. 

 

Today is Tuesday.  Or at least it was when I started writing.  I called my sisters about 2ish and talked to her daughter.  She was off in bed.  I did make arrangements to stop on my way home to bring her a milkshake.  With my Dad having his surgery a couple weeks ago I've slacked there.  Not today!   I stopped at Baskin Robbins/Dunkin' Donuts for her treat.  It was dead in there and only one register open.  I walked to the counter that wasn't near the ice cream and put in my order.  As I stood there talking to the guy working, right at eye level behind him was the case of freshly made treats.  Glaring at me and was a lemon blast donut.  My sister LOVES lemon pie and this doughnut had her name all over it.  I started to order a half dozen mixed donuts and was informed for $1.20 more I could get 12.  Well, DUH!  That's a no brainer!   I got 12.  There was a reason that was the only register open.  Sell, sell, sell. 

 

I got to my sisters and she came out of the back room.  I'd hugged and kissed her, only to find she was hot!  I'm not talking sexy hot in her lounge ware.  She felt like she was burning up.  She didn't feel it but took some med's anyway.  She got on the couch and I hooked her up with her shake and donut.  She looked like a little kid with the powdered sugar on her lips and cheeks.  Some even on the tip of her nose.  Lucky her, she has my Dad's nose.  He calls it the Roman nose with character.  I guess she listened to him when she was little.  He always told us, as well as his grand kids, 'pull on that nose if you want one with character!' 

 

MMMMMM was a common theme as she sipped on her shake and ate.  We talked a bit about her trip and the fun they had.  How the weather was, and how nice it was to get away.  She let me know the results of her scan.  It's not horrible news, but it is not what I had hoped for, prayed for, or wished for.  The lesions on her liver have shrunk, millimeters only but that is the right direction.  The tumors on her pancreas have grown by millimeters.  The Dr. said not to forget a millimeter is like a strand of hair.  It didn't matter to me.  It's the wrong direction!  My heart skipped, but she was still so positive I couldn't let her see my sadness.  I ached inside but didn't want her to know.  They are going forward with the same treatment plan.  She has her schedule out until September.  I know it's a battle, and I knew it wouldn't be easy.  I just wanted so bad for it ALL to be good news.  I will continue to pray, have faith and be positive.  Summer dreams...........  I want my sister well.  I want her cancer free. 

 

Before I left we made plans to do lunch on Friday.  Ohhh the reason I wanted the day off.  I'll arrange to have my mom and whoever else is available join us.  A girls day out for a 'yeah day.'  When our kids were young we had 'yeah day' on the first day of school.  We'd get them off on the bus and we'd all meet up for lunch.  To celebrate.  LOL  This will be a celebration of love. 

 

I got home and had dinner and could see out my back window the sky turning pink.  I needed air, needed space.  I grabbed my camera and headed downtown to the marina.  I stood at the railing and snapped picture after picture.  I normally look to see what I had gotten.  Today?  I didn't care!  I just needed beauty, needed to feel faith.  Strength.   As I was walking back to my car, I stopped at the road way and took a few pictures of the buildings downtown.  I heard a little boy, 'Lady, lady' in a high pitched voice.  His father hushed him.  'But she isn't looking.  She might walk into the street.'  I put my camera down and turned to thank him.  I had no intention of walking into the street, but I appreciated his caring.  I told him I was so busy taking pictures I was glad he was there to help me.  He smiled ear to ear, his father winked. 

 

As I turned to walk to my car I heard in a deep voice, 'lady, lady'  It wasn't a child, but a man.  I turned to look and there standing smiling and laughing was Jimmy.   A very good friend of mine from years gone by.  You may remember our lunch date a while back.  It was wonderful to see him.  He bent to hug me and I felt myself grab hold of him not wanting to let go.  He sensed my need and pulled me in closer.  Tears rolled down my cheeks, but I just stood there letting him hold me, holding him.  He had no idea so I filled him in between tears and sobs.  We grabbed a bench and talked.  It was nice, he was nice.  Sweet.  Loving and helpful.  He let me cry.  He walked me to my car, a quick kiss and we went our way.  Faith... in a friendship so deep that no matter how much time goes by you can pick up where you left off.  Care for each other and bring a warmth back to what seemed like a cold day.  I'll call him if I don't hear from him this weekend.  We are going to try and get together when we have more time.  Time............

 

It's late, and it's now Wednesday.  I am off to bed.  I do hope everyone had a great day today!

Summer dreams..........

 

Hugs

~d

Tags: summer dreams, cancer, milkshakes, friendship, sunsets